I've decided why it is that I hate rewrites. Not the tweaky little rewrites that strengthen characters, fix grammar, destroy passive writing, and clarifying obscure passages. I mean the kind where you have to chuck entire chapters and start from scratch, annihilate plotlines and begin again.
It's because I hate admitting that what I have written is that bad. It is humbling to get back a crit that has more of my crit partners' comments than fiction text. When that happens, I tend to peek at it, skim the comments, then put it away so I can pout. I need a day or so to think about what they've said, put it in context, and come up with a backup plan. I need time to kill some pride, admit they are right (which they mostly are), and get myself into a place where I'm willing to learn, to improve, and to sacrifice the bad for the sake of strengthening the story.
Let's just say, this has been a humbling week.